Starting from the beginning of the semester, I have been busy as this is the first semester of my degree. Running like a busy bee, I tackle with every challenge I have to face and finish it beautifully. And finally, I am out of luck for the MUET exam. I make not one, but two critical mistakes I can't afford to made it up myself. First we have the reading test, it is a bit harder to read compared to my foundation subject academic English. But I guess I nailed eventually. Move on to the next test, writing test, I must admit I am not well prepared for this. The first question is to write a report for chart and graph which I overwrite with 40 words. I know this is bad. Worsen than that, I write my second essay and fears I am out of time. The second question is weird and ambiguous in away. It requires students to write an essay about imbalance of gender in university brings social problem to the society. I am like what is going on? For real? I write about 600 words and have no time to make all my point to good use as time runs out. The examiners for MUET are dumb enough as they ONLY acknowledge the time with the final notice, says " You have 10 minutes more". The clock in the exam hall is so small and it hangs at the front wall. I seat at the back row and I can't see the time. Isn't every examiner will acknowledge the students at least 2 or 3 times before the exam ends. Why they need to make the students' life so hard? I seriously doubt their creditability as an examiner.
Finally We reach listening test, here the final nail to the coffin. Oh my god, this is bad that my hand is trembling as I type furiously on the keyboard. I swear I am going to smash the screen for the next minute. The examiners give out one piece of question paper and note pad paper. I thought this is going to be same as the foundation exam. We got to keep the question paper and the note paper is for answer that we need to hand out. But the result is the opposite, they don't even bother to tell us about this before the exam starts. I feel like I want to flip the table so hard to make a statement how bad these examiners are to release my teenage angst. I quickly write down whatever answer I could copy form the note back to the question paper and hand it over, and I am not the only one. After the exam, my whole heart is sinking to the bottom of the sea. Later, I have the loser walk to the art shop to buy some art tools for my next art project. So many things have cross my mind and my heart is racing, I feel like a China prostitute in Petaling Street who is begging and trying to grip a hold on for support after busy business hours.
This whole experience is so inspiring in a way that I realize I am too greedy and dumb as I want to accomplish so many things only to fall short at the last stage of the process. It is my fault that I unable to plan my timetable that lead to this disaster. Also, the examiners are so bad that I wish they have diarrhea. It has quite strong impact on me as I am trying to regain my strength to deal with more challenge in the future. People can't turn back time and only can move forward, and I am going to take it for grant and serve it as a lesson for life. I try to heal my soul as I am getting burn out from all the stress that I am not good enough in the class or something else. I will try to draw more for better drawing skill and hopefully I don't fail on any subject. As for action, failure will leads to success and Rome is not built on day one. I am pretty sure I have to retake my MUET for the next session as the result is going to bad for this time. I am going to more well prepared for this before I enter the next exam hall.
